In earlier entries, I described the discovery of specific nodes—the primary hardware of internal sensation. But a collection of nodes is not yet a system. This post documents the integration of the energy body: not a model of how the body “is,” but a description of how it was perceived at different stages of training.
Phase I: The Architecture of Conduits
For a significant period, my internal map was defined by constriction. The connections between nodes solidified into what felt like stable, three-dimensional tubes with distinct “walls.”
In this phase, the perceived signal behaved like a pressurized fluid in a closed hydraulic system. It could only travel longitudinally, confined by the channel, entering or exiting the body solely through specific terminals—the “Five Gates” of traditional practice (the crown, the palms, and the soles of the feet). If I wanted to energize the solar plexus, for example, I had to “route” the signal from the navel or down from the heart.
This “tube-vision” is likely an artifact of orbit-based training. By focusing on the Microcosmic or Macrocosmic orbits, I conditioned the nervous system to move energy in series. In this model, every node between the “gates” acts merely as a relay, receiving and delivering signal only to the node above or below it. It is a highly efficient but closed architecture.
Phase II: The Breach of the Walls
The transition began when the terminals started to “leak.” It wasn’t just the palm and fingers radiating the feeling anymore; the sensation expanded to the wrists, until the entire forearm felt like an open aperture. Then the entire head began to radiate or absorb, then the feet, calves, and knees “opened” simultaneously.
This permeability gradually spread to the core. The pivotal moment in this shift was the realization that the “walls” of the central channels were becoming porous. The dependency on linear routing vanished.
I recall a distinct session where the solar plexus node activated not because I pushed energy into it from a neighboring center, but because it began to draw signal directly from the exterior, through the skin and tissue of the abdomen. The body stopped functioning as a plumbing system and began operating like a mesh network. Every point became capable of independent input and output.
Phase III: Dissolution and Modular Control
This openness seems to be the technical prerequisite for what traditions describe as “dissolution.” As I perceived the body more permeable—where the boundary between the internal sensor and the external space became negligible—the structural map became unnecessary. The sensation of “tubes” vanished.
However, in my experience, this “void” is functional, not empty. It represents a state of zero resistance. It is not an absence of sensation, but the absence of obstruction.
Crucially, this architecture is reversible. For me, the loss of the rigid map did not equate to a loss of capability. In fact, it offered superior modularity. Even within this open field, I found I could still “instantiate” a tube on demand—narrowing the focus to channel a high-pressure “ray” through the hands, or collapsing the field to concentrate entirely on a single node.
The difference is that the structure is no longer a cage I live in; it is a tool I deploy.
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